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Oh shit, y’all weren’t kidding. This is a lot better, damn.
I keep saying variations on this but food does not work like an RPG item pickup. You don’t have a set of “health values” that immediately raise and lower with everything you eat. People talk as if a pizza “damages your body” or a vegetable “lowers your cholesterol” or that every “fattening” thing you eat is literally adding a little more fat to your body per serving.
This is not remotely how a real body works. That’s how a video game character works. The long term trends of what you eat condition your metabolism in different ways over time. If your cholesterol improves because you’re eating more vegetables it’s because you gave your cells more time to use up the cholesterol they actually need to build their membranes, not because the vitamins in vegetables are generating some magic Healthfulness Energy. If you’re gaining weight from eating lots of cake every day it’s because the excess sugar is affecting how your body distributes and retains the surplus resources long-term, not because each bite of cake physically adds like 1 more point of fat cells to your stomach. That’s not biology.
i think i'm just about ready to snap and start unhinged yelling about generational neglect in the queer community

young queers hate anyone that isn't young.
i wish it was more complex than that. it's always couched in some other argument of course, about how times have changed or how old people are inherently more conservative or how "outdated" language is "offensive", rich out of touch boomers etc, but it's just a distraction. new young people enter the queer community and want it all to be fresh and new and sexy, they want to be the trailblazers, the first generation really pushing back, the first true radicals. after all, if the previous generations had done it right, they'd have defeated bigotry and oppression, right? so they must have been fighting wrong. they must have been bad queers - sorry, bad LGBTQIA+'s. so they should shut up and let us kids fix it.!
of course there will be black and white photos of "elders" and a sort of performed reverence for "history" and us "always being here", but only as history, never as contemporaries, as members of our continuous community that we should actively listen to. the voices of those that came before are only revered once they're dead and they can't argue back at teenagers wildly misreading and rewriting their lives... or maybe even worse, the fresh queers might discover their revolutionary new praxis system has actually been done before!!
the excuse i hate most though?
"we lost a whole generation to AIDS"
i am so fucking sick of hearing this, absolutely sick to my stomach of it. because we didn't! i am not at all going to minimise how horrific the aids catastrophe was to our community or how many it killed, because i have heard first hand stories of people that lived through it, who lost friends and families to it.
but that's the point. they lived through it. many queers did! depending on where you are, most queers did!
we have a living, continuous, unbroken line of queers spanning back all of living memory who we could truly embrace as elders of a community, to care for and learn from, so that we don't have to stumble through alone, but we don't. a "queer elder" is someone like me apparently, 35. i keep having people in their early 20's tell me how thankful they are for my "wisdom", like bitch, there are 60-80 year old queers out there, ready to tell their stories! they will know a fuckton more than me, and all of it is still relevant!
when i was in my 20's, and i was lucky enough to learn from some of them at the rare events where they were welcomed; 50yo's setting up casual evenings for anyone and everyone to come and talk and share stories and learn from each other. i had a therapist once that was a grumpy old dyke that came out in the 70's, and while we often had friction in our opinions on mental health strategies, her experience was invaluable for me untangling a lot of internalized hatred and self loathing. it broke my heart one day when she just straight up said "people would rather pretend we'd all died from aids though, than have to listen to what we've got to say".
but even in the decade since then, it's got worse and worse.
everyone i know my age who once had an active and thriving social network in the queer community has withdrawn into isolation. we live in small pockets with few friends. there's no space left for us. all ages events and gatherings are organised for the fresh and young, and they complain if we're there - we being anyone who dares to be a little wrinkly and saggy. any event that has a minimum age, 30+, 40+, 50+ etc, get flooded with hate for being "exclusionary", or "hoarding resources" like community is a 4X game. teenagers complain about "creepy old predators" having picnics at midsumma carnival. people in their 60's are told to go kill themselves for daring to use the same language they did 40 years ago - ironically right in the middle of the aids crisis that supposed cost us all our elders. horizontal ageist violence in the queer community is some of the nastiest emotional vitriol i've seen, and i've been hate crimed (:(:
so we withdraw into eternal loneliness, looking for scraps, being told our names and flags and core identities are as hurtful as the weapons of the oppressors. told we should either ovverhaul our entire experience of being queer to fit in with what's acceptable in this 3-year cycle of new identities and symbols, or stfu and go away.
but there's this pervasive fear and hopelessness you see among young queers, talking about how high our suicide rates are, talking about losing a whole generation to aids; because when we're made invisible, what are the youth supposed to think other than that we've got an expiry date, and they won't live past 29?
the elders are here and they need love and support too, or the cycle will just repeat, and those fresh sexy young queers will also grow up and be discarded, again and again.
and i'm so, so tired of it.
the swiftness and cruelty with which younger queers will discard someone from the community is unfortunately not limited to queer elders.
there is a tendency to dispose of anyone who says a wrong thing, has a wrong kink, isn’t ideologically pure in the way the in-group is etc.
it is a sad way to be in community, if you can even call it a community, when everyone lives in fear of making a mistake and being ostracized as a “harm-doer”; and it is exactly what fascists and homophobes want—it serves their interests for us to eat our own.
so maybe think about that the next time you go to cancel a 50-year-old queer for calling herself a transsexual.
my favorite r/researchchemicals post was one where OP was like "oh my god guys do NOT do etizolam, i just regained consciousness after a full WEEK and have been told i was going to my job the entire time like everything was normal" and then someone asked what his job was and he said he operates an industrial crane at a shipping dock
some addendums:
- as people in the notes have pointed out, saying he "regained consciousness" isn't entirely accurate. etizolam causes anterograde amnesia (the inability to form new memories), so dude was fully conscious the entire time, just physically incapable of remembering it until the etiz wore off.
- everyone asking how big of a dose he took to be out of commission for a week has the wrong idea - he didn't take all of it at once, he compulsively redosed until he ran out entirely. one of the biggest dangers with etizolam is that it combines the aforementioned anterograde amnesia with delusions of sobriety. this forms a vicious cycle where, once you take enough to get high the first time, you forget taking it, forget that you're even high, and decide to take some more. rinse and repeat until your entire stash is depleted. the main safeguard against this is storing the etiz in a time safe so it's physically impossible to redose, but even this isn't foolproof - people have managed to use power tools to break into their own locked time safe at 2am while convinced they're stone cold sober.
- PLEASE do not do etizolam because of this post jesus fucking christ!!!! it is not this cool pill you take to go on autopilot from your boring job; it's an obscenely addictive drug that can literally ruin your life on the first use. etizolam is everything D.A.R.E. made weed sound like, but real. if you don't believe me, ask anyone even tangentially related to the research chem scene: they'll know at least one or two people who took etiz once and drove their car into a daycare or some shit. stay away from both research chems and benzos in general, but for the love of God stay away from the intersection of them
Etizolam (and all the other related chemicals like midazolam, alprazolam, etc.) can basically turn you into the guy from Memento while you’re on it, as can a few other inhibitor-type drugs like gabapentin. I’ve heard lots of horror stories from people who lost weeks of their life to these medications.
"The magic system is never fully explained" yeah that's how life works. Imagine having a story set in modern day America and the characters have several pages of exposition on combustion engines and telecommunication networks before we get to the plot
You don’t have to imagine it; I’d like to direct you to the classic, “If all stories were written like science fiction stories,” by Mark Rosenfelder.
When you are a classical musician and the public asks you to play Queen …
@hieronymus-bush … although I’m not sure what you’ll think of it 😆
Holy hell. He has amazing technique AND he didn’t just transcribe the piece to piano, he essentially composed classical music (and honestly some neo-classical, lol) based on the melody. Plus, he kind of looks like Freddie.
People in the 1800s would've gone apeshit over this in the concert halls
Reblogging to watch later...
This is what would happen if someone used a time machine to give Rachmaninoff a Queen CD


